Yes, we all know by now that I am horrid at keeping up with this blog thing. I am lazy, slightly uncouth and unmotivated. I am also newly ( sort of ) engaged to the most amazing man I've ever met.and he loves me EXACTLY as I am ..all Gothy and kinky and princessy and foul mouthed .How did I get so lucky ?I didn't .I took matters into my own hands. I feel like writing again .it's been too long . the only problem with that is I tend to write better ( creatively) if I have a partner . I had several partners . one is dead , one is MIA and the other ...while I occasionally miss her , I feel like she is too far-gone . I have ideas , but typing them out and then following through . Clair believed in me , she always did . I feel like Ive let her down. I need to write where to start ?